My Complaints:
Several months ago I complained to my physician that I was having episodes of racing heartbeat. She conducted an EKG and I was fine. She thought it was stress or (more specifically) my anxiety.
For several months I have been concerned about my right breast being tender and perhaps "lumpy" yet the mammogram was negative. I purchased the cancer coverage from AFLAC just in case.
My libido has been decreasing...I know that we all slow down eventually, but really, I LIKE SEX! I told Sam it was a mid-life crisis and he should be lucky it is so mild.
Then I decided I might have Chronic Fatigue Syndrome because I have terrible periods of fatigue and my muscles ache at times. I went to a chiropractor three times a week for three months. My lower back feels better...but nothing else.
I have been contemplating contacting Karen (Dr. Chaney to most everyone) about prescribing me meds for ADD. I swear that I cannot focus!
And my memory is getting, well, what was I saying? Because my grandfather died of Alzheimer's, I worry...okay, more anxiety.
Perhaps the worst concern lately has been my depression and episodes of crying...I miss my kids and grand kids and want to be closer to them. It has become so intense, Sam is determined we will start searching for jobs in Texas ("I can always pick up my tools.")...He is 56 years old!
My last episode of crying (2 days ago) he suggested I might be menopausal. I was so mad that I went to bed at 7:30 and did not talk to him until the next morning. In the meantime, he would continually check on me off and on (thinking I wasn't on to him) and immediately apologized the next day.
Okay - so last night I went to bed cold and wrapped an extra blanket around me, then I woke up too hot, so I took the blanket off. A while later I was cold again...by now you and I both know where this is going.
Today I did an Internet search on my symptoms and immediately found this website:
http://34-menopause-symptoms.com/
Well...I an 51 and have hit the menopause wall. I have to say that I do not like it at all. I have not even addressed the new facial hair or thinning pubic hair. But I want to be a poster child for the women in my family...it will happen! I am going to have to make some changes...eat MORE soy, exercise daily, and cry on my husbands shoulder for no good reason.
I think we can survive anything if we understand what it is. I know that my family is supportive and am relieved that I am not all these diagnoses, or worse, a hypochondriac. I am just "going through the change of life."
Okay life...if you think for a minute you can change me, just see who wins this fight!
4 comments:
Holy crap I don't want to go through that!!!! I am already a basket case once a month!!!!
That is some awesome writing! Aren't emotions just stinkers!!! I have a love/hate relationship with them. Love you, Mom! Thanks for the very cool blog. I'll read it when I'm in my 50s!
FABULOUS! Thats all I can say! not the part that your menopausal but the way you write about it and handle it. I always knew you were strong. I hope all is well!
I needed this message from a wise woman right now with all the problems I am having right now with my pregnancy. I know its not the same but still its one of those things women must deal with.
I have strange and bad periods and it was kindof funny when you called me and told me you were going through it because I was being visited by "aunt flow" and I was thinking "my mom is so lucky, i have, what 16 years left of this crap". I hope you didn't think I was being insensitive when I said that was awesome, it was just the timing of it all.
I love you Mommy! And I so wish I can write like you and Alisa.
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